Friday, December 30, 2011

Update

So, I had my doctors appointment with Dr. Yamashiro today and I feel SO much better. He confirmed that I do have a MTHFR mutation, and told me that we will definitely treat with heparin once I become pregnant again. There are risks associated with heparin, though, and they kind of scare me. If I get in an accident, or slip on ice and hit my head, I could totally bleed out and DIE! lol! In all seriousness though, this is so scary because I drive to school and back home (2 1/2 hours each way) at least once a week, so the chances of getting in an accident are pretty high. ahh....but I guess the risk is worth it, right? Right!

So after we found out we had lost this last pregnancy, I discussed with my previous doctor about doing Cytotec rather than a D&C because there are fewer risks associated with it. She had agreed, hesitantly, and it was obvious that she hadn't prescribed the drug very often. I asked if I needed to come back for a follow-up ultrasound to determine if everything had passed with the Cytotec, primarily because that was what my midwife did with my first miscarriage. She told me that an ultrasound would be unnecessary if the placenta passes. HA! I know this will be TMI, but after the fetus passes, all sorts of junk comes out...blood clots, tissue, placenta....and they all look the same. In addition, there are so many awful emotions going on that you really don't want explore the stuff... Ok...Sorry that is gross..  Anyways, so while I was at the doctor today, he asked if I have had an ultrasound to determine that everything has passed. I told him what my previous doc had told me and he said that it is VERY common for uterine contents not to pass with Cytotec and that you should ALWAYS get a scan afterwards. If the uterine contents were to not pass, there is a very high risk of infection. So Dr.Y did an ultrasound and guess what? There is still stuff in my uterus.... So once again, my previous doctor could have further screwed me over. Golly, she just pisses me off!

Moving on.....So I now have a prescription to do a third round of Cytotec, and if it is unsuccessful I get to have a D&C on Monday. Isn't this fun? But there is hope! Dr.Y is going to do everything he can to figure out what is wrong with me. Once I have an empty uterus he is going to do an XRay on my uterus to see if I have a uterine septum....which means a wall in my uterus. I guess if the embryo implants on or near this wall, it does not get enough nutrients and eventually dies. Apparently this is a common cause of recurrent miscarriages and he just wants to rule it out before I get pregnant again. I think it is safe to say that I feel very comfortable with this new doctor. He explains everything thoroughly, asks if I have any questions (and actually waits for me to think about it), and at the end of this appointment he asked me if I was comfortable with the plan and how I am holding up emotionally after this awful time. I have never had a doctor who cared so much! It was incredible! lol!  I won't lie, I was very hesitant about going to a male OB/GYN...but all of those fears went away after my appointment today!

So that is my update of my medical issues...I know it is just so exciting...ha! It makes me happy though because I am one step closer to determining what is causing the miscarriages and one step AWAY from having another one! The third round of Cytotec does suck--I will be sitting around drugged up all day tomorrow... keep your fingers crossed for me that I don't have to have a D&C on monday. I'll let ya know how everything tuns out (because I know you care so much ;)). Until next time....!

Wednesday, December 28, 2011

A Not-So-Merry Christmas..

Ok, that title is a little harsh. We had a great month up until about a week ago. So I'm going to start with the happy stuff and then explain the crappy stuff at the end. Sound good? Great!

So, as I explained in my previous post, I made a Christmas advent calender to help create a Christmas-y atmosphere at home. Within this calender I had little Christmas activities to do- I think we had like 10 activities to do (but we only ended up doing about 5...bummer). Anyways, the very first activity was to go get a Christmas tree. Well, we thought it would be fun and adventurous to buy a Christmas tree tag and go cut a fresh tree down from the mountain (its cheaper that way, too!) Trouble was, we had NO idea where to go to find a real pine tree. (All over Sevier county there are these really funky pine trees that had branches growing upwards instead of out/down.) At one point we were afraid we would have to chop one of those suckers down and have a retarded tree. After spending an entire week searching for the real pines, Branden finally got a tip from a fellow Christmas tree hunter (lol) about where to go :) It just so happened that the real pine trees are CLEAR up at the top of the mountains. Sometime in the second week of December, we decided to finally go and chop one down... in the middle of a snow storm..(we had no other choice, it was either go this particular day or have no tree until the week of Christmas). After an hour and a half drive with a foot of snow covering the road, we came upon the REAL PINE TREES--dun dun dun! We got out of the truck and started hunting.


We hiked through this snow (that was up to my mid-thigh, mind you) until we found the least awkward looking tree we could. All the trees were all skinny and bare so finding a semi-decent tree was a hard task. Finally we found an OK one and loaded it up and hit the road.
As you can see, it's a little skiwampus, but it was the best we
could find before the big storm came. 
You can see on Branden's pant's how deep the snow
was at some points.
When we got home, we let the tree "defrost" for the night and then decorated it the next day. Branden actually helped me decorate it!! woot woo! However, he wouldn't allow me to listen to Christmas music during the decorating...Mr. Bah-humbug...lol!
I'm not sure if I like the blue...I think next year I'll go back
to the traditional red and gold!
The next activity was to make gingerbread cookies and decorate them.

I love my kitchen aid! Makes tasks like these so easy! :)

Rollin...


I love my one-eyed bikini guy...or I guess girl 
So that's that! Other activities that we did were to drive around and look at Christmas lights, Go Christmas shopping together, etc. etc.!

Now onto the crappy stuff...

So, I'll just lay it out flat- I had another miscarriage (3rd one in the last 6 months). I was 10 1/2 weeks along this time and I was just about to announce the pregnancy before we found out we had lost it. It has been a little over a week now since it happened, and I think it would be a good idea to write about it so I can start to move on...

I had made this announcement to send out to family and friends as
a creative announcement
Long story short, I am SO so so so so so soooooooooooo mad at my doctor.Really, that isn't going to make this story any shorter, but I guess that is just the thing to say. lol. Anyways, so back in November, when I found out I was pregnant, I immediately made an appointment with my doc. I had gone to a midwife with my previous pregnancies, and after the second miscarriage I decided I was too high-risk to go to a midwife, so I switched to an OB. When she found out about my two miscarriages, she got me in that same week to run tests to figure out what was causing me to lose my pregnancies.

Now, to make this story make sense, I must tell you about my aunt. She had multiple miscarriages before she found out she had a genetic mutation called MTHFR. Now, this genetic mutation doesn't always cause problems in pregnant women, in fact a very large percentage of the general public have this mutation and have no issues whatsoever. But then there is that small percentage who do have problems, and it is believed (but not proven) that this genetic mutation causes a blood clot to form in the umbilical vein around 9-10 weeks, which will eventually kill the fetus. Well, my aunt has ONE marker for this mutation, which most doctors would look at that and think nothing of it because it is very rare for that to cause any problems. However, because she had had so many miscarriages, her doctor decided to treat that disorder with heparin in the off chance that that one marker was what was causing the miscarriages. Due to the heparin, my aunt now has two beautiful boys.

Ok, now back to me. So at my first appointment with my OB, I had a TON of labs drawn to see if I had any of the common disorders that cause miscarriages. MTHFR was one of these tests. Now, at the time I had no idea what this disorder was. I just knew that my aunt had one marker for it and they treated her with heparin, which worked. So I told my doc about this...and she said she would definitely test for it. A week later, she called me and told me that all the labs were insignificant and that I only had one genetic mutation that causes me to not be able to metabolize folic acid adequately. She instructed me to take some extra folic acid everyday and she put me on progesterone just as a precautionary measure. I remember specifically asking her about the MTHFR mutation and she said "the results of that test are nothing to worry about. So I took her word for it and went on with life thinking that my doctor knows best and blah, blah, blah. I had an ultrasound at 9 weeks, where I saw the heartbeat and according to my doc, everything looked great. However, a few days after this appointment, I started having this really bad feeling. I would cry almost every night for a week, thinking something was wrong with my baby. I was able to talk myself down each time and just tell myself that I was just being paranoid because of my history of miscarriages. I finally made an appointment with my doc, after almost a week and a half of this, so I could have some piece of mind before we made the big announcement. At this appointment my doc couldn't find a heartbeat via Doppler, so she did an ultrasound just to be safe. This confirmed my awful feeling, and showed that the baby had died a few days earlier...no heartbeat, no movement. It happened just as my first miscarriage had, which made it that much more devastating. Through my sobbing, I asked my doctor what she thought was wrong with me and she said, "I think next time we will definitely treat you with heparin. Heparin is not a proven treatment for your disorder, which is why I didn't treat you with it this time." I specifically asked her about the MTHFR mutation, yet again, and she said that she didn't think that the results to that test were anything to worry about (still avoiding telling me the truth about the test result). So I went home with a broken heart and a prescription to do the Cytotec, just as I had with the first miscarriage. That night, I decided to do some research on the MTHFR mutation, just to see what it was. I knew my doctor wasn't telling me something when she told me she would treat me with Heparin next time. I thought to myself that I must have a marker for this mutation, otherwise why would she treat me with heparin? Within an article about the mutation, I found a sentence that said that this mutation causes a reduced capability to metabolize folate (folic acid), which was exactly what my doctor had told me all those weeks ago, but she made it seem like it was a completely separate mutation from MTHFR. Anyways, so I believe I have the same problem as my aunt, which is why I keep losing my pregnancies. I have yet to confront my doctor about this, but when I do I am going to rip her a new one. If she would have told me the straight out truth in the beginning, I would have demanded to be treated with heparin and I might not of have lost this baby. :(

As you can imagine, the whole week before Christmas I was very depressed. My first round of Cytotec did not work and we were contemplating a D&C procedure (which could cause further problems on top of my current issues). In an attempt to cheer me up and bring a little more Christmas spirit to the family, Laura had Mikey dress up as Santa Clause and go around to a bunch of friend's houses to visit the little kids. Here are some pics:

Isn't Mikey such a good Santa?


This is at my mom's house. Little Mikey (my nephew) was SO
excited to meet Santa for the first time (and he totally bought it).
Braxton, on the other hand, was asleep when we got there and was dead to
the world. We would try to wake him up and he looked stoned out of his mind.
Funniest. Thing. Ever.

This did help cheer me up, for the day, but I still felt really down about having to have a D&C. On the eve of Christmas Eve, I talked with the nurse at my doc's office, and was able to get a second, stronger, round of Cytotec, which worked and I ended up passing the fetus the morning of Christmas Eve. :(

So that is my sad story of why Christmas this year was a not-so-merry Christmas. There is hope, however. I made an appointment with my aunt's "fabulous" high-risk doctor. With his help, maybe the next time I get pregnant (which I hope will be soon) I will be able to have the baby I have been dreaming about since my first pregnancy. These miscarriages have been awful and heartbreaking, to say the least, but I believe that they will make me appreciate that little miracle that we will one day have. In the mean time, I have three little angels that will always have a special place in my heart.

If you are still with me, I applaud you because I'm sure all that was very boring for you. I figured I should have the events of what happened laid out, in case I need to refer to it later on. On a slightly happier note, Branden and I bought a TV with our Christmas money we received. :) It's very big and slightly unnecessary, but we enjoy it!


Oh, and I MUST show you this. This was a pinterest project. I got a less-cute idea from pinterest and tweaked it to my likings. I ended up making one for my sister (who's name I drew out for Christmas) and one for myself. It's a chalkboard dinner menu! Isn't it so cute?


And now I will end this loooong post with pictures of my favorite little guy...GEORGEY :)

Whoa, red evil eyes. But so stinkin cute!

My favorite picture of him!
Enjoy!

Thursday, December 1, 2011

What's been happening lately...

I cannot believe I let two and a half months (almost 3) go by without posting! Whoops! Surprisingly enough, it doesn't seem like much has happened since my last post, so you didn't miss out. But I'll try and remember as many things that did happen as I can! :)

So as far as the holidays go, I've been trying to start some traditions for me and Branden. Last year, we were WAY too poor to do anything fun around the holidays, so this year I'd like to start the traditional holiday stuff-much to Branden's dismay. So I'll tell ya about what we did/are going to do for each holiday throughout this post.

OCTOBER:
Let's see, what can I say about October? Both Branden and I worked a whole lot this month, particularly Branden due to the deer hunts. I had a deer tag for the northeastern region (Strawberry), so I was in Heber as much as I could to hunt (which only ended up being like 2 or 3 times). We never saw any bucks though, sad day. But that's really all that happened in October (we are so exciting aren't we? lol)

Oh, and I can't forget to talk about Halloween!! I MEANT for Branden and I to go to a nearby pumpkin patch to pick out our pumpkins (oh, and this place also offered hay rides--I was so excited!) However, either me or Branden worked every day the week before Halloween, so we didn't get a chance to go pick out pumpkins until the day before Halloween, which fell on a Sunday--the pumpkin patch was closed...so sad. So we compromised and went to Walmart and picked out some oh-so-fabulous pumpkins and took them home to carve the same day! I turned on some awful halloween music and we carved away! Here are the results!

Mine is on the left, Branden's on the right. He decided to use his pumpkin's
innards as hair...weirdo.

Pumpkin head
That is about as awesome as we got for Halloween. I had to go to Heber on Halloween night because I had school the next day, and Branden had to stay home in case he got called out to work. Apparently he only had about 5 trick-or-treaters at our house, anyway, so it wouldn't have been worth it to dress up!

One fun thing that my family is sort-of making a halloween tradition is for all of us girls to go see Thriller by Odyssey. I just have to say that I LOVED the show! The dancers were so amazing, it will definitely never get old! And, of course, it wouldn't be my mom or my sister to not get a photo op out of it!

Marlee, Amber, Me, Mom

NOVEMBER:

The main happening of November was Branden's deer hunt. Branden, his dad, and the Phillips boys took a road trip to South Dakota for a week to shoot some deer. :) Branden said it was a much needed vacation! Turns out each of the guys were able to shoot a buck, Branden ended up shooting a really big 8 point! 





While the boys were hunting and having so much fun, Laura and I had to stay home with the dogs. :P Fun fun! We did go shopping a few times, but mostly stayed home and relaxed! When Branden was gone, we played WordsWithFriends against each other. I think it's safe to say, I finally found a game that I can beat him at! He is always commenting on how he can beat me at any game we play---not anymore bucko!! Check this out:

That's right-won by164 points!! (The game
was WordsWithFriends by the way!) And yes, this is
very important news!
Moving on to Thanksgiving! I had to work on Thanksgiving morning (which was ok because I got paid time and a half :)), so we weren't able to drive to Heber for turkey dinner. Instead, my parents drove down and we all had dinner with my grandparents, aunts, and uncles in Annabella. Yes, I stuffed my face like always, and it was nice to spend time with that side of my family! After dinner all the guys played some football!

I didn't want to stop eating to get my picture taken...look at those two full plates of food! YUM 
We love our iPhones!! :)

The guys playing football









DECEMBER

Well, today is only the 1st day of December, so there isn't much to post! lol But I am going to show you a picture of my Advent calendar that I spent ALL DAY painting yesterday!

Santa Advent Calendar
I just love it! Behind each of the doors is either a candy or a christmas-related activity to do that day (go pick out our tree, decorate the house/tree, take a drive to look at christmas lights, make gingerbread cookies, etc). I think it will be so much fun--we'll probably use it every year! :) 

Anywho, since this month is filled with lots of fun things, I will try to post more often! I am also going to try to send out a christmas card to everyone (we'll see if I get around to it), so that should be fun! 

Well, that is all for now! Enjoy!!

Sunday, September 11, 2011

8/19-9/11

Wow, I really need to post more often. I have so much to tell since my last post!


My lil bro, Jesse, got MARRIED on August 20th to the lovely Saryn Brown...now Robinson. :)  The wedding was held at one of the churches in Heber. My mom did all the decorating; it was beautiful, as usual! I didn't get any pictures of the wedding itself, but here are some of my favorites of their bridal photos (which my talented sister, Marlee, took!).

Love the motorcycle prop! 

I love his goofy smile in this picture
 and I double love how she is looking at him. She loves him :)

I added this picture simply to show what the frame was SUPPOSED
to be used for. (see next photo)
Lol He is SUCH a goof ball

My beautiful new sister-in-law, Saryn :)


Next in the line of news: I started school....booooooooooo. It is going to be a looooooong boring semester. My classes consist of: Nursing in the community (probably the best class of the bunch), nursing policy, nursing theory, and nursing research. Sounds interesting, right? WRONG!! Luckily I don't have any tests in ANY of my classes... :)  I think the hardest part is going to be the commute. I have to drive 2 hours to school and then 2 hours home, all in one day (there is more driving then actual class time). I think I'm going to start going up to Heber the night before so it's not such a looooong day of driving.    Here soon I have to start thinking about what I am going to do after I graduate with my Bachelor's degree (in April 2012). I know I am going to keep going to school, I am just not sure if I am going to go the midwife route or just the general Nurse Practitioner route. I may even think about becoming a PA. I guess I'll let you know when I decide :S.



Speaking of medical stuff....Branden got an infection in his finger this month. I posted it on Facebook but I'll post it here too with the dets. He isn't sure what happened, but he remembers his finger getting poked by something and then a few days later it was all infected and swollen and extremely painful! He would get so mad at me if I even looked like I was going to grab his hand. So I went with him to the doctor (because I wanted to see them cut it open) and they did just that! They numbed his finger, got a scalpel and sliced right into it! I know this is TMI, but when they first sliced into it, pus squirted all over the wall next to the doctor. HA! And then there was a bloody mess. My favorite part was when the doctor stuck the end of a sterile Q-tip swab INTO the incision and dug around to make sure the whole thing was one pocket of pus and would drain. I thought Branden was going to pass out when he saw the doc do that! lol! :)
As you can see it is infected and big.

This is at the doctor's office right before they cut it open.
Yes, he is flipping me off because I was excited.
That wall you see there is the one the pus squirted onto. LOL!


Our little dog, George got his hair cut :( It always makes me so sad because I love his long hair. But we had to do it before it got too cold.
Before
After:
He was so sad. He fought the lady that cut his
hair for 3 hours straight. He does NOT like the clippers. That is
why his front legs are longer than his back, because he wouldn't
let her use the clippers on his front legs. (She had to cut them
by hand.)

September 2nd was my nephew, Braxton's, first birthday. Here are the pictures of the party:
Singing "Happy Birthday"

He sure does love his cake! :)

This is the gift I got him. It is a bath toy called "Bathketball" lol
I thought it was cute and apparently he loves it

Say cheese! haha

On September 3rd my first niece was born. Marlee and Ray named her Brielle! :) She weighed 9 lbs 8 oz!! She's a chunky monkey but we like em that way!! She's SO cute!

Baby Brielle Davis

Marlee and Ray and Brielle! Such a cute little family!!

AND THEN....My 3rd nephew was born on September 8th! Amber and Michael named him Marcus Lee Sandoval!
Marcus Lee Sandoval

He is so cuddly! :)
Mikey loves his baby brother. Braxton is not so sure about him.



Misc. Photos:

We went to the mountains and grilled us some burgers :) Yum!

Branden's grandpa sent me some fun pictures of Branden:

Left to Right: Paul, Mikey, Grampy, Branden, Laura

Can't figure out how to rotate. But this is Branden




We went hunting last week a couple of times:

Picture of sunset from the top of the mountain :) So pretty

Branden is hunting Cow Elk. He got so close to shooting one once
but she was behind a tree so Branden couldn't get a shot in.


And last but not least: Today is the 10th anniversary of the 9/11 terrorist attack on the twin towers. I heard this song on the radio yesterday and it brought tears to my eyes.



And now I am officially done writing this novel! ;) Enjoy!